Do you consider yourself a grown-up?
My friend asked me this when we were out biking this weekend. Probably my last bike ride of the fall. It was beautiful out, the breeze was full of wilting brown leaves whipping past my hair and crunching under the tires. I turned to him and said "No! ... well maybe" and felt a little bit of myself get crushed too.
When I was 10 years old I would say, everyone over 18 is definitely a grown-up. At 18 I would say, no way, I'm going to school still, I'm a kid. At 25, do I have an excuse?
Finished school a couple of years ago (23)... so that's not a reason anymore. Left home, got a job, pay bills, own a car, do my own laundry, make dinner for myself. Yeah, I still call mami and papi on the phone, but I'm mostly autonomous. I actually take a lot of pride in that. I like that I am independent. That all definitely sounds really grown like...
It's interesting to take a survey of your life two years after the fact and check it off as the day you "grew up". Sure I would rather spend the day in sweats and play videogames but I get dressed and go off to work instead. How mundane. Silly grown person making money to pay for food and shelter.
What's next? Evolve to ultra grown-up with loans and mortgages and little people to take care of?
My response to him should have been. "Labels are silly, they just make you evaluate your life on something that has no tangible meaning." But I didn't, and I fell into the trap anyway. I mean, we were hanging out, riding our bikes along the lake on a Sunday afternoon. I should put tassels on my bike.
One day at a time, one day at a time. >_<
My friend asked me this when we were out biking this weekend. Probably my last bike ride of the fall. It was beautiful out, the breeze was full of wilting brown leaves whipping past my hair and crunching under the tires. I turned to him and said "No! ... well maybe" and felt a little bit of myself get crushed too.
When I was 10 years old I would say, everyone over 18 is definitely a grown-up. At 18 I would say, no way, I'm going to school still, I'm a kid. At 25, do I have an excuse?
Finished school a couple of years ago (23)... so that's not a reason anymore. Left home, got a job, pay bills, own a car, do my own laundry, make dinner for myself. Yeah, I still call mami and papi on the phone, but I'm mostly autonomous. I actually take a lot of pride in that. I like that I am independent. That all definitely sounds really grown like...
It's interesting to take a survey of your life two years after the fact and check it off as the day you "grew up". Sure I would rather spend the day in sweats and play videogames but I get dressed and go off to work instead. How mundane. Silly grown person making money to pay for food and shelter.
What's next? Evolve to ultra grown-up with loans and mortgages and little people to take care of?
My response to him should have been. "Labels are silly, they just make you evaluate your life on something that has no tangible meaning." But I didn't, and I fell into the trap anyway. I mean, we were hanging out, riding our bikes along the lake on a Sunday afternoon. I should put tassels on my bike.
One day at a time, one day at a time. >_<
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