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I'm starting this blog because I figured I should start logging the events of my life. I've consistently failed in doing this in the past. Blame it on lack of motivation or interest in my part. There are many things developing in my life at the moment, so what better time to record than now!
The good:
There is a new and wonderful man in my life. We have been together for about a month now. It certainly looks and feels and taste like love. LOVE. Its fun and scary both in ways that make my heart beats fast. Its also gentle and comforting knowing he feels the same way. I don't really believe in true love. Just chemical pheromones, with this incredible combination of attraction and affection. This is the deepest I have ever felt and I'm in awe that we have found it. People are flawed, people are broken. I just happened to have found someone whose broken flawed pieces compliment mine.
The bad:
Things are coming to a head at work. Unfortunately it has been tumbling downhill for some time now. Frustrating and demoralizing, the future is bleak. I have decided to jump ship on my own accord before either the whole ship goes under or someone else decides to push me. Right now, I'm in the process of blowing up different safety rafts. One way or another its going to be big shift in my life and a big step towards my very uncertain future.
While I'm an independent creature that feeds on the opportunity of change, it can be quite daunting sometimes. Like scaling a cliff, I like having to figure out how to continually climb higher and higher, but once at the precipice I notice its just a ledge and I have to either keep climbing or jump. Always without a harness.
The ugly:
Mix a little bit of the bad and a chock-full of good. Complicated mess? Wonderful opportunity? We are both talking about the next big career move that will happen in 6 months, 1 year, who knows. It is great that we are openly talking about the future, but is it nuts to be talking about moving somewhere together?? Yes. Insane. I've been committed. (@_@)
I'm starting this blog because I figured I should start logging the events of my life. I've consistently failed in doing this in the past. Blame it on lack of motivation or interest in my part. There are many things developing in my life at the moment, so what better time to record than now!
The good:
There is a new and wonderful man in my life. We have been together for about a month now. It certainly looks and feels and taste like love. LOVE. Its fun and scary both in ways that make my heart beats fast. Its also gentle and comforting knowing he feels the same way. I don't really believe in true love. Just chemical pheromones, with this incredible combination of attraction and affection. This is the deepest I have ever felt and I'm in awe that we have found it. People are flawed, people are broken. I just happened to have found someone whose broken flawed pieces compliment mine.
The bad:
Things are coming to a head at work. Unfortunately it has been tumbling downhill for some time now. Frustrating and demoralizing, the future is bleak. I have decided to jump ship on my own accord before either the whole ship goes under or someone else decides to push me. Right now, I'm in the process of blowing up different safety rafts. One way or another its going to be big shift in my life and a big step towards my very uncertain future.
While I'm an independent creature that feeds on the opportunity of change, it can be quite daunting sometimes. Like scaling a cliff, I like having to figure out how to continually climb higher and higher, but once at the precipice I notice its just a ledge and I have to either keep climbing or jump. Always without a harness.
The ugly:
Mix a little bit of the bad and a chock-full of good. Complicated mess? Wonderful opportunity? We are both talking about the next big career move that will happen in 6 months, 1 year, who knows. It is great that we are openly talking about the future, but is it nuts to be talking about moving somewhere together?? Yes. Insane. I've been committed. (@_@)
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